Being Spiritually Dry

Have you ever felt spiritually dry even though you have been doing all the right things?

When that happens we often make one of two choices. We either blame our church because it no longer meets our needs ("There's too much milk and not enough meat") or we blame ourselves. In this second instance, we decide that we need to fix the problem - often by doing more - more Bible study, more prayer, more acts of service, etc.

Maybe, just maybe, there is no problem that needs to be fixed at all. Could it be that the God who made you and loves you has pulled Himself away just a bit to create in your heart a greater hunger for Him? Is it possible that instead of being chronically disappointed in you, He actually wants to be closer to you?

Could it be that spiritual dryness is an invitation for intimacy and not an opportunity for guilt and criticism?

I think so.

Lessons of the Trinity

I have been spending some time in the past few weeks pondering the Trinity.

From all eternity, there has been one God in three persons, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. These three are distinct, yet inseparable.

What does that have to do with life today? Here are a few thoughts:

1. Because the Trinity has existed since the beginning, this means that the very nature of God is one of relationship. Before He did anything, the members of the Trinity were in relationship with each other. Relationship existed before task. It is at the very core of the nature of God.

2. The Trinity functions based on a relationship of love. In other words, the Son does not obey the Father because the Father has a higher place in the hierarchy. The Son obeys the Father because the Son loves the Father and the Father loves the Son.

3. It is our calling to enter into this same relationship of love. The Lord is the majestic, awesome God of all creation, before Whom we are nothing at all. He could rightfully demand our service and obedience. Yet, He lays all that aside and seeks a people who will:

- follow and obey Him purely out of love for Him and for no other reason.
- lay aside all tasks as secondary and take the more difficult and perilous journey of intimacy with the Holy One.

These are people who have fallen so deeply in love with the Lord that they have abandoned all else to have Him.

The Trinity lives continually in a relationship of love and intimacy. When Jesus says to abide in Him and He in us, He is calling us to dare to seek that same level of communion that the Father, Son and Holy Spirit enjoy with one another. It is a much more difficult journey than mere outward obedience, but it is in this journey of the heart that we truly find God. And when we do, nothing else matters anymore.

Contradictions in God?

God is perfect. He is perfect in all of His attributes.

His mercy is perfect. His justice is perfect. His love is perfect.

But there's a problem.

How can a perfectly loving God exercise both perfect justice and perfect mercy? How can perfect justice ever forgive anything? It can't. Justice, in order to be just, must be impartial at all times and in every situation. It cannot show any mercy. To do so would be to be unjust.

But love delights in showing mercy. How, then, can a God be perfect in love, perfect in mercy and perfect in justice?

There is only one way. God, in perfect justice, must demand that there be a full and complete punishment for every act of wrong doing. Then God, in perfect love and mercy, must decide to take all the punishment He demands upon Himself and pay the price for sin by Himself.

When God chooses to do this act of atonement, His complete justice is met and His complete love and mercy are extended - and none of these aspects of who He is violates the perfection of the others.

In the cross of Christ all of God’s attributes are both summarized and displayed in their perfection – even those attributes that don’t seem like they could exist together.

No other religion can have a perfect God because no other religion has a cross.

Religion versus Relationship

"Jimmy" is a model Christian. He's about as perfect as they come. His behavior is moral and kind. He attends church every week, leads a mid-week Bible study and teaches a Sunday school class. In addition, he has regular, daily devotions and is frequently reading Christian books.

Everyone speaks well of Jimmy. Everyone, that is, but God.

Jimmy's problem is not that he is doing anything wrong. In fact, he is doing things very well. The problem is a question of motive. You see, there are two ways we can approach God. The most common way is through religion. In religion, we attempt by our behavior to seek God's favor or blessing in our lives. The religious person, whether Hindu or Christian or Muslim, does what their religion requires out of a place of emptiness. They need God's blessing, so they do whatever their particular faith says is necessary to experience God's favor.

The Christian faith is the only faith that offers an alternative to religion - relationship. In relationship, we already know that we are fully accepted and loved by God. As a result, our behavior is no longer an attempt to earn His favor, but the response of a heart that knows it is truly loved.

Sadly, most Christians have never had a deep experience of the love of the Father, let alone an on-going sense of His favor. As a result, whether we realize it or not, we become like Jimmy and start living out of religion instead of relationship. That is because when we are empty inside, we will make getting our emptiness filled the motive for what we do, whether we realize it or not. Our outward behavior may be wonderful, but it is a form of manipulation, not adoration.

It is only when we are filled with the love of the Father that we are able to live unselfishly, because it is only then that we have no need we are desperate to meet. We are free to love others and serve God with no ulterior motive. Our life is now a response to being loved, not a desperate attempt to get love.

That is the true Christian - the one who lives their life as an outflow of a love relationship with God. Other followers of Jesus may indeed be born again, but they have not entered into the abundant life that God offers each one of us.

So how do we enter into this abundant life? It is not necessarily easy or quick. For me, it took several years of unlearning my performance-based Christianity and learning to make seeking God my top priority. When He became more important than all of my other Christian activities, then things began to change. Still, I needed a lot of emotional healing to be able to receive the love that God had for me.

The result is that much of the time I walk in an awareness that I am incredibly loved by the Father. That awareness changes the entire way I think about life, myself and other people. What matters most is simply loving God back and worshipping Him. Ambition, pride, selfishness are all crucified by the power of love.

A Loving God & Suffering World

Christians throughout the centuries have wrestled with this topic. Why does God allow suffering? Why doesn't He intervene in horrible situations?

I am not going to attempt to answer this question. But I do want to make a few observations:

1. One problem in finding an answer is that intellectual answers are often not effective in dealing with emotional hurts. I may have a great theology on God & Suffering, but it may still do me little good when tragedy strikes.

2. Sometimes, when we question God, it is not in order to learn, but to accuse. If God were to answer us in those times, He would, in effect, be making Himself accountable to us. It is a dangerous place as a creature to be able to sit in judgement of the creator.

3. Perhaps God is silent when we ask this question because He knows that what we need is comfort, not solutions. I remember as an Air Force chaplain having people ask me in the midst of a tragedy, "Why did God let this happen?' My usual answer was, "This is miserable, isn't it?" Most of the time, people did not ask for a better explanation. What they really were doing was expressing their pain in a theological question and they really didn't need a theological answer.

4. I have found that as I grew deeper in the love of God, the importance of questioning what happens becomes less and less. I am more content to accept what I don't understand because I know the love of the Father for me. So, even when what is happening makes no sense, I can trust in Him and not my understanding of things (Prov 3:5-6). So, the questions remain, but they no longer nag at me because they are no longer that important. In the midst of struggle, instead of fighting God to understand, I can bathe in His love and find comfort instead.

Relationship with God

Two thoughts on this subject:

First: I have six children. My relationship with each of them is different - not because I am different, but because they are each different. In the same way, we should expect that each of our relationships with God will be different because we are all different. Similarly, as we grow and change, our relationship with the Lord will also grow and change. This growth is one reason why many people who have been believers for a while no longer feel like they fit in the Christian culture. The cookie cutter relationship presented by much of the Christian culture is designed for the young and less mature. It does not have room in it for the nuances, freedom and mutuality of a more mature relationship with God.

Second: God will often place people in positions to argue or disagree with Him. Moses, Ezekiel & Peter each had experiences like that. In some cases, He does it to teach us a lesson (Like Peter and the vision of unclean animals), but in others, it is to enhance our relationship with Him (like Ezekiel cooking food over human excrement). You see, real relationship requires communication and mutual decision making. When we require God to be the only decision maker, we prevent Him and us from having a deeper relationship.

So, God will ask us to do outlandish or very difficult things - not to see if we will measure up, but to engage us in dialogue and discussion with Him. These tough requests are not designed for us to see our shortcomings as much as they are designed for us to engage in a full relationship with the Lord.

In Ezekiel's case, God told him to cook his food in a way that would make it unclean. Ezekiel protested and God all lowed him to use cow manure instead of human excrement. The issue in the interchange really had nothing to do with the fuel used for cooking. It had everything to do with God wanting a depth of relationship where they could discuss and decide together what to do.

The Love of God versus the Love of Human Beings

The love of God and the natural love of human beings is of such different quality that it is hard to call them by the same word. God's love flows out of who He is. It is not based on anything about us - it is unconditional, yet fully emotional. Our love, on the other hand, is based on the object of our love, not on who we are. We love some people more than others because of what they mean to us. Therefore, our love always has an element of selfishness to it. This distinction between the basis of God's love versus our love is huge. This is especially true since our hearts are deceitful above all else (Jer 17:9). As a result, we walk through life with a selfish love and with a heart that is constantly trying to justify and deceive ourselves about our motives.

On the other hand, when we experience the love of the Father and walk in His love, all of our love needs are so completely and overflowingly met that we can love without any hidden motive or agenda. It is a freely given, genuine love that is based on the love we have, not the love we want. Just as apart from Christ we can do nothing (and yet we actually do a lot of things, just nothing that matters), apart from the love of the Father, we cannot love (although we can express the best human imitation of the love God wants us to walk in).

Another ginosko (See March 13, 2009 post)

In John 17:3, Jesus says:

"This is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent."

The word in the Greek for "know" is ginosko. So what Jesus is saying here is that eternal life is not found in an intellectual understanding of God, but in an intimate knowing of Him. It is a relationship thing - not an intellectual or performance thing.

Being in the Presence of God

When Jesus says to abide in Him, it is easy to focus on His command to us. What we can miss in the process is that Jesus is also revealing that it is His desire to be with us. In effect, the command to abide in Him is not so much a command as it is an invitation. Jesus wants us to experience His presence in an on-going way and He invites us to participate in that very thing. Why? Because He wants to experience our presence.

The Problem of Defining God

It is difficult to engage God with our minds unless we establish some framework for conceiving of Him or understanding Him. The problem, however, with trying to understand God is that He is beyond our understanding. As a result, any way we conceive of Him will of necessity limit our understanding of who He is to our definition, even though He is far greater than any definition. Perhaps that is why in the Old Testament He gave the enigmatic answer for who He is: "I AM." Anything else would have placed an artificial limitation on who He is.